Ever said goodbye to a loved one as tears streamed down your face? Ever stared at an empty bank account and wondered how on earth you could make ends meet? Maybe a broken relationship has left you numb, or you’re walking through a messy transition.
Chances are, if you haven’t been faced with a situation like these, you know someone who has. The nature of this life we live means that we all experience loss, grief, pain, and struggles. No one is exempt. I’ve found that the challenge for us all is how we deal with the questions we are left with. If you’re like me, you’ve possibly had times of doubting that God could still be in control.
When we wrote “You Hold It All”, I was in the middle of working through the mess that was my inner world after six years of emotional transitions that I hadn’t dealt with. I desperately wanted the lyrics to be words I could truthfully sing from the heart. But if I’m honest, I wasn’t quite there yet. I was in the process of a three-month counseling program, re-living heartaches and losses on a painful, yet beautiful healing journey.
Ahead of me lay a minefield of unknowns, which had triggered an endless string of questions in my heart. Fears gripped me and worry paralyzed me. My only option was to search and dig deep into God’s Word to find truth. God revealed to me that the root of the issue was a lack of trust in Him; a confronting reality in my walk with God. I had been focusing and holding on so tightly to my life that I had lost sight of who He is.
As I delved into scriptures like these, I was challenged and given a beautiful breath of fresh perspective.
“He holds in His hands the depths of the earth and the mightiest mountains. The sea belongs to Him, for He made it. His hands formed the dry land too.” – Psalm 95:4-5
“Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” – Matthew 6:27
Who are we to question our God who holds all of time in His hands? The one I should have been questioning was me. Was I willing to lay down my pride, give up my empty plans, and fall on my knees before Him?
As I journeyed through my season of rediscovering truth, Mark and our writing team determined that we were going to write this song of trust; the very thing I was battling. The lyrics we wrote were, for me, a deep prayer and confession of faith. My heart was yearning to be able to freely sing, “God I trust you with everything”, and this song became a humble and earnest cry of surrender.
I remember the days and weeks leading up to our recording as I was practicing and genuinely praying that God would use me to heal broken hearts. I remember weeping on my knees in our living room asking God to first do a work in me. As I sang those lyrics over and over to myself, an unshakeable faith overtook my spirit and God’s Word came alive within me.
“You hold it all, You’re in control. You hold it all, You’re in control.”
If you’re in a challenging time and struggling to trust, I was there not too long ago. Looking back and reflecting on that season, I’m eternally grateful that I have the confidence to encourage you that what God did in me He can do in you too. We need not fear the unknown, because there is no such thing as an “unknown”. God knows – and He’s a good God, a loving Father, and the keeper of your heart.
Even if you don’t “feel” like you’re able to trust Him, sing this declaration over yourself despite it all. As you make “You Hold It All” a verbal confession, God will align your mind, heart, and spirit with His Word. My prayer for every one of us is that the song’s bridge would become our faith anthem: “As long as You’ve got me, nothing can stop me…”
Trust and surrender are the antidotes to worry and the beginning of freedom. I pray that you would be willing and daring enough to let go and let God lead you into this freedom today.